2010.

When i woke up this morning, i decided that i would not leave my house until i cleaned out my closet, read at least 4 chapters from my econ book or found my safebox keys. Well, I ended up just cleaning out my entire room in hopes that i would kill 2 birds with one stone and find my keys. Well, i didnt and I probably should have read from my econ book first, but oh well.
Anyways, i found a christmas card i receive last year from a girl that i use to consider my best friend. (And yes, i call everyone my best friend, but i honestly thought that she would be one of the friends that would be with me till the very end.)

life.

story of my life

"You have the mind of a slightly mad genius and tend to live in your head. Always make sure you socialize or you could become quite reclusive. You are blessed with the imagination of an artist but may spend too much time thinking and not enough time producing. Sometimes you are tempted to tell little white lies…. Or even great big ones. Try to resist. You have trouble revealing your vulnerabilities in a relationship, or you reveal handpicked ones to put you in a strong position, but either way you hide yourself. "

Whoever wrote this must have been stalking me or something because it is so on point. i guess maybe the date you are born has something to do with your personality. weird. i wanna meet someone with the same birthday as me. see how much we have in common.

So Cal Fall Edition.

Drove down to Santa Barbara. the first night to visit Camille's sister, Claire, then headed to Pasadena to visit Jeremy and my sister, Grace. Decided to make a spontaneous trip to Monterey on the way back home.



California 101.

Chicago: Part II

Flew out to Chicago for Baron's 25th and my 24th birthday. I wanted to spend it with him, but he was out of town on tour for 5 of the 7 days I was there. Oh well.


Wicker Park.

new.

So is this how it'll always be,
Going back and forth between you and me?
If only you knew how my heart aches
How I would do just about anything

I don’t think you would understand
That what I feel is true
That when you touch my hand
Or hold me close to you
It’s what always brings me back to you


It breaks my heart to see you sometimes
To know that you’d never truly be mine
I don’t wanna sleep sometimes
In case I see you in my dreams

You’re what keeps me from falling apart
But you always seem to break my heart
This is not what wanted at all
I never thought that I would ever fall
Why do need to love me so, only when you go?

So Cal

Decided to visit the sister in Irvine with Natasha this month. Went to the Long Beach Aquarium, Santa Monica Blvd, Irvine Spectrum Center & Getty Villa in Malibu. I love how Getty Villa compiles the arts and cultures of ancient Greece, Rome, and Etruria all in one place. This was the last week that they showed Jean-Léon Gérôme's art and I'm glad I didn't miss it.



Long Beach.

Vegas 2010

Flew out to Vegas this past weekend with Sarah. As much as I do not enjoy or condone excessive gambling & drunkness, I do enjoy the sightseeing attraction of Las Vegas. We got to ride the gondolas at the Venetian, climbed the Eiffel Tower at Paris, walked around the Forum Shops at Caesars Palace & saw the Fountains of Bellagio.

tiger in love. you are very romantic and enjoy flirting. you will never be satisfied with the one you manage to hunt down. settling down just with someone is simply not your style as you like to have several options open to you.

my coworkers think that this was spot on. probably.

life after chicago

it's been a month since Chicago and it seems to be fading faster than i can remember it.

June.

June 30, 2010. The last day of June.
I cannot, in words, full express how I felt about the last month.
I spent 18 days of June in Chicago and the other 12 days thinking about Chicago.
I wish I had written a journal for everyday I was there so I can remember what happened each moment of the day.

Chicago 2010.

Drove cross country from Sacramento, California to Chicago, Illinois to help Baron move back. There is nothing in-between the two places... Stayed in Chicago for almost 3 weeks, yet only visited the Museum of Contemporary Art and Lake Michigan. Met some great people though and had a great beginning to my summer.

They dont called it the windy city for nothing.

I wish I could read your mind...

You’re what keeps me from falling apart,
But you always seem to break my heart.

San Francisco.

My aunt came to visit from Canada. Decided to drive down to San Francisco to show her around with my sisters. Stopped my Treasure Island, Japanese Tea Garden, Golden Gate Park, Ocean Beach & the Legion of Honor.

homeless people.

So on my way home from grabbing a movie for my mom, I see a homeless person with a sign that says "I'm homeless and hungry" or something like that. I decided to give him some small bags of chips that I have left in my car. I typically have snacks in my car for the days I have school so I don't end up eating out and spending money. So I roll down my window and say, "hey, I don't have much, but...." and i realized that he was on his cellphone. I gave him the chips anyways and he says "Thank you. God bless you."

I was a little upset that he decided that having a cellphone was more important than buying food. But then again, maybe someone gave it to him? I don't know. I tried to do the right thing so I guess that's what counts....

I’m just an ordinary girl with ordinary feelings. I can be easily broken and set aside to be forgotten.

every time

It’s 3 am and we’re at it again.
It’s the same argument every time, every time
You remind me of all my faults
“You’ve always given up so easily.”
But not this time, I’ll try to hold on.

If you only knew how you leave me weary
Every time you try to go.
As you say, “I love you so much, but I won’t fight anymore.”

Ask me anything, I'll tell you the truth.
I hope you believe me when I say I say that am yours
I guess what scares me the most
is not knowing if you’ll come back at all
If only time could tell me

If you only knew how you leave me weary
Every time you try to go
“I love you so much, but I won’t fight anymore.
I won’t fight it, I can’t fight every time that you go…"

Napa Valley

Drove out to Castello di Amorosa in Calistoga, CA for a photoshoot with Jason. The Castle is It was beautiful. Love the wine, love architecture, love the photos.

New Years 2010.

A few of my favorite photos from our NYE 2010 party.





photos by : JMHarper & Candice Chow