June.

June 30, 2010. The last day of June.
I cannot, in words, full express how I felt about the last month.
I spent 18 days of June in Chicago and the other 12 days thinking about Chicago.
I wish I had written a journal for everyday I was there so I can remember what happened each moment of the day.

I honestly cannot say that I would want to move out of California, but Chicago felt like home.
Not the city per se. I could care less about Chicago and it's terrible weather changes.
I still believe that California has everything I could ever want.
But Chicago felt like home because of the people. In particular the Harper brothers.
I'm the the cheesy type, but I really feel like they're part of my family.
I've never really been close to my parents or my sisters.
I mean, Grace and I have a very close relationship, but it's more one sided.
She can tell me everything, but I can't say the same for me.
But with Baron and Jason, I feel like I can tell them anything.
I guess what I miss most is having a brother in my life.
Since my brother left me, there's been a emptiness that hasn't been filled till now.
I know I have a lot of guy friends. The majority of my friends are males, but they could careless about how I feel or think. Maybe it's the California lifestyle.
Like Javier said, guys don't just want to be my friend.


I know the kind of person I am.
I get easily attached to things that seems good... at the moment.